well, i sure am not doing hcg right now... lol

buuut erica made me feel bad because i have been reading her blog, but i haven't been writing one... i figure, my 3 followers are my facebook friends, sooooo, they get most of the juice there... anyway, i've been off hcg for over a month now, i settled in at 185.4.  i've been thinking about doing another round, my friend shawn is going to finish her drops, i think i will just take my sisters... and i'm going to start working out, no really, at least 3 classes a week, plus weights... (also with shawn) I don't know if you guys know or not, but i decided to get back with jeff. apparently during our "break" he did nothing but make sure that he was really ready to be in a relationship, thanks to his crazy ex i guess it was really a BIG deal, and well, he kinda thought we would just be hanging out, but when he started to see that this was becoming a lot more fast he wanted to make sure he wouldn't be leading me on or anything... that's what he told me, and i believe him, he's pretty much been honest with me the whole time i've known him... he says all he did for those two weeks was think about me and go bowling with his friend scott... aaaaanyway, i've been working a lot, and hanging out with jeff a lot, i really like that we both have kids, sometimes it's so hard, with the the "he's hitting me" he's being mean" "he took my blah blah blah" but it's nice to do stuff with them together (well sorta, usually one of them runs one way and the other the other way) and have someone who doesn't seem put out by the "really, your kid comes first?" kind of mentality. I really really like him, i was a little nervous telling him that i was ready to try it again after he came by to talk to me, i mean i was pretty hurt after he needed some time to think it through and it was 2 weeks, i had pretty much given up on him and was pissed because i was taking birth control i wasted 90 dollars on.  however it ends up, he's really good for me, and kyeron, and i'm happy. 
  Work sucks, i work so much, and do so much, and a lot of times i wonder why, i have to constantly prod people to do their jobs, and i have to be the mediator, and the mommy, and the babysitter, and the clean up crew in times of disaster. uuugh, i love it though... i just have to keep telling myself that.
  it's been so long since i've been to the gym by my job that i didn't know the system changed, now you can just use your thumbprint, instead of a card, whoa, what? when did that change??? lol, anyway, body pump tomorrow, then weights and a pedi with shawn, talk to you soon my blogger peeps! i will try to make sure it isn't so long next time!

r2.5 vlcd3

doing good, cheated yesterday, ugh... i really want to finish my drops with a bang, i'm going to prepare my meals ahead and take it seriously from now on... i don't know why it's so hard... but i have a couple weeks till TOM arrives, (says the birthcontrol i'm taking for no reason... uughh) anyway, i'm drinking water, and from here on out i'm shooting for new territory, then i plan on working out and debating a last round of HCG...

post sickness/completely rediculous breakup, and 2 consecutive apple days soo aka r2.5 vlcd3

i lost the 6 pounds i gained when i had a major case of the f*its... and i should be into new territory tomorrow, i've totally been dying to cheat all day though...   if i do, it'll be another apple day tomorrow, i will let you guys know.

r2 vlcd23

i'm so sick, and i woke up to a .3 gain, so, today i'm going to have some chicken soup, and take my cough medicine, and eat cough drops, and drink echinecea (or how ever you spell it...) tea, and get better, then i will be back on track... just a couple days! hope you guys are all doing well!

r2 vlcd22

i have been doing apple days constantly, working too, i think i might just do it till i burn out, and then eating tilapia and stuff will be like a treat! i've only been eating two or three a day though, i don't want to burn out.  but i feel like i can make  up for lost time on the diet by doing that, i weigh 182 so, i  am almost half way there!

r2 vlcd22

so, monday i thought it was the 23rd... i don't know how... but anyway... apple day success, i lost like 3 pounds, and then i lost two again today! yay!!! i'm off tomorrow, going to cook breakfast for my boys, (kyeron jeff, and his son) and drink my fruit smoothie.  waffles, hasbrowns, eggs, hmm, i wonder if we have bacon... i'm going to watch jeff's son for him while he sleeps because he has to work a three man shift all by himself... poor baby! anyway, today i had cauliflower and lemon pepper chicken, and an apple.  thats it, lots of tea, lots of water. i'm happy i have my head in the game now!

R2 what shoulda been vlcd21 I think

I broke down last night, and not even with stuff I like! Well Mac and cheese is good, but pop tarts? Uuuuugh! Kyeron just kept waving it in my face and well, I finally took a bite, and then it was all down hill from there, I'm scared to see what the future weigh in has to hold for me... That was about 2 cups mac and cheese and a whe pop tart, plus a bite... I can tell ive lost inches still but the weight just isn't coming off like it was, maybe I'm at an old set point, but I am pretty sure I've never been this big except for when I was pregnant... 180s is still better than I thought I'd get on the diet, but I still have 3 weeks to go, and I will for sure be doing an apple day today!

R2 vlcd 21

Lost bother pound today. That puts me at 30lbs total! I'm almost half way there, I'm sad I haven't lost more this round but I am sure it is my fault with all the cheating I did the first two weeks. Hoping the last three weeks of the diet work out better!

r2 vlcd17

so, down another pound today, it really sucks my sister isn't on the diet with me, today i got home she was eating this black bean chips that smelled amazing, then pizza, then brats, now she's eating cold stone... :( but i want to be cute for summer, and i want to be back to a normal me weight, so i'm going to keep going, and chewing that gum, and being a mega grouch, going to the gym, and pretending to love it... by the way bre, zumba is my most favorite class! i loooooove it. i've been dying for a latte all day, just made some espresso for dinner, hopefully it'll all be alright in the am!

r2 vlcd16

well, i don't know what to do, if the cost and the rewards arent enough for me to stay on track with this diet, i don't know what will be! i didnt actually cheat today, but i basically cried because i couldn't eat a cookie or a bagel and cream cheese, i lost .6 today, i think that drinking all that water after eating those cookies really helped, but imagine where i'd be if i hadn't cheated at all, i'm going to go help jeff clean his house and then i'm going to bed! ERICA so excited to watch you back on HCG, i am praying you inspire me to finish this stupid 6 week round!

i love and hate hcg...aka r2 vlcd15

so, i was 188.6 today, but i'm totally going to gain, if not tomorrow, then the next day, for sure! i just ate like 20 stupid nilla wafers... how can they be so stinkin good. i drank like 2 extra gallons of water, and i think i'm going to try to do an apple day tomorrow... so i fail at round two! i'm still down a couple pounds... uuugh! 25 days to really hit it... i'm going to try to hit the gym 3 times a week too.

r2 vlcd 14

ahh, 189.8 so, i'm in the 180s, but barely, but more so than i should be, for sure the way i cheated on my period!  POPed today, and will aim to continue doing so for the rest of the diet.  Jeff and i are on the mend... he really did lose his phone, (he does all the time, in fact he came into the bagel shop i run yesterday to tell me he lost it again, and wanted to know if i had called or texted) he told his baby mama about us, and he bought me shoes and took me to the movies, more importantly, kyeron was sick when jeff came into the store to tell me he lost his phone, and jeff watched my whiney pukey child for me so i could finish inventory and so on.  plus he bought me shoes people, lol, mia,  you know that's my weakness! he doesn't really help me stay on the diet though, i don't know if i like that or not, on one hand it is nice to know he likes me the way i am, and he doesn't NOT want me to cheat, but on the other hand i wonder when i will cave when i'm hanging out with him.

anyway, i had a lettuce wrap with beef in it for lunch, and i had asparagus and tilapia for dinner, no fruit no grissini... about 20 whiffs of popcorn, and 5 or 6 deep inhales of funions... maaan, i don't even really like chips but those smelled fanfreakintastic! love you all, hope we are all shrinking in our own separate ways!

r2 vlcd11

so, i ate protocol all day today, and i think TOM is finally going to go away, i will start weighing myself tomorrow. 

on a different note:
So, about that c-junky i was so happy to call my boyfriend... he's probably a douche bag, i didn't finish listening to his bullstank long enough to tell for sure, but i know i don't want to be with him, it started out with him calling and texting, not only every day, but multiple times a day, stopping by my work to "say hi" and blah blah blah, well, then after hanging out at his house, just us, (just pg13 stuff, not even nc17 stuff....) he stayed in routine for a day or so, and then fell off the face of the earth for two whole days.  I half thought he lost his phone (he left it with me on accident twice) but still thought it was weird, called him and texted him once a day, no response. then i texted him and said i don't know what happened, but i'm taking you out of my phone, call me when you want to talk about whatever the hell is going on.  well, he texted back, basically saying he didn't want to deal with his baby momma drama and that he wanted to talk to me in person about it, today.  then today he was texting me back and forth saying how excited he was that i was going to talk to him, and he was cooking dinner, and blah blah blah, i get to his house, and he's trying to hug me and kiss me and stuff, and i'm just like, um, we aren't there yet buddy... i took kyeron pottty in his bathroom and he reached for the trash bag, i took it away from him and there were two tampons on top, in the trash, i'm just thinking a million things but i say nothing, i want to know if he is going to devulge anything on his own.  so i go back to sitting on the couch, and i say, so what happened? he said i just needed a day to figure things out, she is psycho, and blah blah blah, i said would have been nice to get a heads up, he said, i was tired, and stressed out, and i just needed a day to relax, (meanwhile i'm thinking there were two days...) i said, so what did you do, he said specifically, i just hung out here ALONE with the bean (that's what he calls his son) and put his bedroom set together. so, that's at least lie number one. and then he had the nerve to tell me that i wouldn't understand what complications he has to deal with with his baby momma because I DON'T HAVE TO SHARE KYERON WITH ANYONE... uh, ky has a dad, and he sees him every week, and we are pretty dang honest with each other, (he knows lying to me is the quickest way to never see his son again) i think if he didn't play so many games in general she wouldn't be such a crazy psycho now.  so, i know that isn't diet related, but i had to get it off my chest, again, honestly, i don't even want to be his friend anymore.  and on top of it i wonder if he just had some creepy random chick there to do him because i wouldn't. uuugh, i sure do know how to pick them, apparently i like being a "man thief" (that's what the baby momma's always call me) and i also like being the "undercover girlfriend" i must be on some list or somthing, how do these creeps find me?!?

sorry about the cry fest guys, bre, i think you will do wonderful working out and eating better, erica, i can't wait till you are POPin with us! MIA you're amazing, you're one of my oldest, dearest friends, i wish we lived closer!

r2 vlcd 10

so, im not going to weigh my self until after TOM, uuugh, cravings are horrible, i made a bagel with cream cheese yesterday, went all the way to my mouth, and then into the trash... i don't think i can do that again! lol, next time i will be taking a bite... hopefully there wont be a next time! anyway, had broccoli and tilapia for lunch, asparagus and steak for dinner is the plan. one apple one grapefruit.

UPDATE.... so, i was going to eat the last of the chocolate cake, then i threw it away, then i thought about taking it out of the trash, so i took the trash to the can in the garage... then i noticed we have fun sized snickers... i gave in and had one, then i started looking at the twix... haven't had one, just drank about half a gallon of water, and i'm going to go to bed... waaa, i wonder if it is TOM, or if i'm just using that as an excuse...

R2 vlcd9

So a .1 gain this morning, mother nature just had to throw TOM my way... Ugh!!!! I'm just going to keep doing what I know I should be and hopefully she goes away soon! Hope you all are losing like nobody's biz! Btw, kyeron is 100% potty trained! Oh yeah!!! And

r2 vlcd8

doing good diet wise, i will be in new territory tomorrow, and in the 180s! i weighed 190.1 today, had a good day! i drank coffee with chocolate raspberry stevia, lots of water, an apple and strawberries for my fruit broccoli both meals, and fish both meals.  i am honestly glad i decided to cheat for a whole day, because looking and smelling the things that i really want is ok right now, and if i kept saying no i probably would be cheating little by little the whole way through.  shawn is in the 160's officially now, and she's doing well with not cheating this time, in fact, she's working a new job so she's only been eating once a day, and her two fruits.  (except her days off).  Karina (the other girl i work with that is trying this with us) doesn't think she's lost any weight, but im pretty sure she cheats on a regular basis.  i'm also pretty sure she hasn't even read the red book.

r2 vlcd6

so, i gave up yesterday, i decided i should get all my cheating out of the way now, that way i don't think about it everyday.  I ate 2, yup two, and decent sized pieces of cake, went out with my friend tan to eat pho, for those of you who don't know what that is it is rice noodles in a broth with bean sprouts basil jalapenos and your choice of meat, housin sauce, and siracha to taste, oh man it was good, it was all good, and i had a giant glass of milk with my piece of cake at 8pm, it was so good, and i felt so sick... this morning when i weighed in i was at 195, i just weighed myself now and i'm at 194.  I knew i was going to gain, i guessed about 5 pouns, so i should be happy with 4... i know i will lose it in the next couple of days, and today was really easy to stay on track where i was supposed to, in fact, it's almost nine pm and i could still have an apple... and a grissini. =D   anyway guys, happy releases!

r2 vlcd 5

so, i'm down to 190.2 or something, i'm pretty amazed actually, horrible that i can cheat like that and still lose weight... just imagine how much i would have lost without chocolate cake... anyway, i'm starving i haven't eaten yet, it's 11:30 and i had a corporate walk though at the store today, i've been putting in all kinds of extra hours for it, and i'm glad it is over, and the owner is happy.  I'm going to go figure out what's for lunch. talk to you guys later!

update: uggggh, i'm horrible, i forgot my drops at work, and i've been starving all day, lol, i ate two extra bites of hamburger for lunch, and probably a double portion of asparagus, i've eaten both my fruits, and i just cheated, AGAIN, with that confounded cake... maybe i wasn't ready to start hcg again, i'm so sad... i'm resolving to be better from here out, i'm drinking a lot of water, and trying not to think about it too much, water under the bridge, water under the bridge... so much for being in the 180's tomorrow!

sunday, 1 day after cheat, aka r2 vlcd4

so that stupid cake was calling my name again today, but i resisted! you ladies musta really had me in mind when you were praying last night... so, i thought about doing an apple day today, but since i didn't have any real food yesterday, i decided it wasn't a good idea, and since i was being a raging b-i-t-c-h today i decided i should eat.  sooo, you guys didn't warn me about how hard this diet is when you have a sig other... like you can shave... but no lotion, no smelling good shampoo and conditioner, chapstick sparingly?? uggh, how come as soon as a get a man my lips get all dry, my hands start to crack.... fooey! AND last gripe... waa for not going out to "eat" on dates, lol! this is the time he's supposed to be WOOing me he did get me flowers though, lol. anyway, i ate an apple, and for lunch i had a beef patty and broccoli. i'm still huuuungry so i am eating strawberries. i'm so freakin starvin today!

Water weight....

So I weigh 191.6, I'm sure tomorrow will be a sad sad gain, because I'm so thirsty this morning, and I know I only drank about 64 ounces of water yesterday...

more pics? beginning of r2

R2vlcd3

can you hear it whispering sweet sweet nothings in your ear?

I'm a bigggg faaaaat cheeeeeater, I couldn't help it, it was amazing, it's all I can stand not eating mOre! Sooo I've had an apple an orange and about 5 bites  of cake today. Fail! We worked our butts off today though, my arms and legs hurt they are even shaking! I will load the pic of the cake when I get home!

r2 vlcd2

uhhhggghhhh! i'm so hungry... lol, i want to eat EVERYTHING, bagels, candy, chips, :( i think loading the way i did is making me die for them! i thought it would quench my cravings or something? so not the case... i've been pushing through it though... those stupid pork rinds are even calling my name... uuuugh.... anyway, i weighed in at 194.8 today, that puts me right around ldw, and about a pound away from before i started loading.  hopefully i don't cheat today and i lose a LOT tomorrow... pray for my will power guys!

today i had iced tea for breakfast, then a spinach salad with tuna, pepper and tony c's in it, snack i had an apple, next snack was strawberries and a grissini, now i'm debating on chicken or beef for dinner with asparagus

r2 vlcd 1

waa, why is it you can eat whatever you want after the diet and not gain anything, but as soon as you are back on drops it is 5 pounds in 2 days? uuugh! could be worse i guess! so, i'm so hungry today, i had a strawberry smoothie for breakfast, and a double espresso with hazelnut stevia, lunch i had shrimp and spinach, and for dinner? i'm not sure, probably tilapia or something... i've already had both my grissini today too.  i'm just drinking water anxiously awaiting dinner... i guess i should thaw something out for it already. hmm

well, i ate an apple, or half of one, my son took the rest; took a nice 3 hour nappy, and woke up made some halibut, i would recommend this fish, you feel like you get a lot more for the 100 gram allotment, it was almost a whole steak, i actually under portioned just so i could share with my 3 year old, and i feel satisfied.  it's kinda like hamburger, feels like a bigger portion, you know?  anyway, steamed some spinach with it, it was great! i really do like that you get to actually eat, and eat GOOD FOOD on the diet, too bad you can't have chocolate, lol

gorge day 2

so, today was a horrible day, i worked hard enough for two people today, seriously.  but, i ate a chicken salad sandwich, on a jalapeno cheddar bagel, and then i had texas roadhouse steak and a loaded baked potato, and a salad for dinner, and then we went to cold stone, mmm best gorge day EVER!

R2 loading day1

I swear every time I start loading I go number 2 a LOT! ping well so far... I will post a weight tomorrow

oh man, it's been a while

soooo, sorry it's been so long, i've been kind of busy, month end inventory, playing with kyeron, and hanging out with my instant family boyfriend, yes that's right people, after firmly not wanting a boyfriend for the past three years, jackie has a boyfriend.  He's actually been a really great friend, i've known him since like 2000, we never dated, but we did spend a lot of time together, i'm really excited to see where this goes.  He's a really great guy, whom i have a lot of respect for, and he has the most adorable little 2 year old, who is the toughest little guy you've ever seen.  Mia, you might remember him from the birthday party, his name is jeff.  anyway, i was going to start my gorge days tomorrow, but the other two girls i'm doing drops with don't have their drops yet (uh, cuz i have them...) so i think i'm going to wait till monday, or friday to do it... we have some non hcg food in the house i want to explode on before i'm really for the vlcd days again... i have still been reading your guys' posts, i love them, and i'm excited to start round two soon! (i'm going to hawaii with my sister, and possibly jeff in may, so, maybe i will be lookin all skinny and hot by then!

i looooove real food!

i really really do! but i'm so excited to be starting round 2.  i've already ordered my drops, and i'm making a plan for how not to cheat, i'm better than ldw, after having 3 freaking pieces of cake at kyeron's birthday party (i know it is the fat kid in me, but there were 3 different KINDS... i HAD to TRY them!) i'm at 192.8 and eating whatever i want, i really need to drink more water, my pee has not been on the clearer side in a few days...

r1 p4 day 2!

mmm, i ate like a fool today, not bad yesterday, couple sandwiches on the ez bread, and a small handful of chips, smoothie, stuff like that.  today.... i didn't have lunch, then had white beans with ham and corn bread for lunch, and i was just totally awful and helped my son eat his chicken nuggets and sweet potato fries.  i'm tired now! lol, working super early tomorrow, and i'm so excited that ky's birthday party is on sunday!

r1 p3 day 18, or 19...

steak day feels like a success, weighed myself this morning and i was at 194.8 at that was at 5am, so i'm pretty sure i'm ok.  i wonder if it would be better to do two steak days right before your loading days, that way it cancels the gorging? anyway, looong day tomorrow i'm going to bed, hope you all are loosing pounds and inches!

r1 p3 day18

so had a steak day today, i was 2.2 over ldw, so, i decided to have a steak day, mmm, it was delicious, i'm not sure if i wasn't supposed to have coffee this morning, but, well, i did, and my tummy is still FULL from steak 2.5 hours ago... and two very small roma tomatoes, with all the errands i ran today i didn't even notice being hungry or missing meals.  i got a hair cut that i HATE, dropped the deposits at the bank, ordered the birthday cake.  Kyeron decided on a spiderman cake, yay! and all my party planning is done, hopefully i get a good turn out again, i ordered the large party (25 kids) and a 1/2 sheet cake, (she said it serves 32-40 people) btw, i <3 despicable me!

r1 p3 day 17

I didn't do much, stupid snow RUINED sales for today, lots of shoveling, and dealing with the owner... sometimes i feel like i should look for a new job, but well, i do like being the one in control (well 90% of the time) and i have total job security there. ugh, anyway, i had one of those dang cupcakes today, and a bite of a crunch bagel too, i guess we'll see how big a trouble i'm in tomorrow, i'm planning a steak day though, last night i ate like half of a thing of cottage cheese so that i didn't have to throw it away, i'm sure all that dairy at 7:30 wasn't good for the diet.

r1 p3 day16 or something...

so, my boss brought in red velvet cupcakes with cream cheese icing today, as a "thank you" for being such a kick heiny manager, and well, i got pissed, lol, she KNOWS i'm on a diet, and she did this? what a brat! she said she forgot, "but aren't they delicious?" i told her i didn't know, i gave them to the staff... but they said they were amazing :( so, i blended some cottage cheese, and lemon drop and vanilla stevia and ate it like ice cream... waaa! it wasn't really amazing, but it did help a little.  i need to go get some of that sugar free chocolate! i am so tired today! we went to cheyenne mtn zoo yesterday and probably walked like 5 or 6 miles... carrying kyeron 50% of the time! anyway, i shouldn't be complaining, i should be happier i have a good job, and a healthy son, and a house to live in... sigh, i'm taking a shower and going to bed, talk to you tomorrow!

r1 p3 day 1million1... or 15... i think

did great today, except i just had a bowl of corn pops... tsk tsk, i just couldn't help it!

r1 p3 day 14

nothing new, no weight gained, no weight lost, i'm not weighing tomorrow, because I have to open, but i've been good, so im not worried.  had 4 slices of ezekiel bread today though... i am still full... fuuuull! well, i'm going to bed, plans for my sons b-day are UNDERWAY!

some befores, and afters, and what i want! what i had

before i started working out, 2/11

family pics

after starting to work out, -20#

after first round hcg, -25, so, 45 total lost

oh cinny-rolls! mmm

mmm apple crisp

r1 p3 day 13

so, i meant to write a blog yesterday, but i came home from inventory,  and watched a movie with my son, and passed out, so hard on his bed that i woke up in a SHOT at 5:30am and couldn't move my neck, and my son was all curled up next to me with his arms wrapped around me and his hands gripped around my hair, cute and cumbersome and of course he woke up when i was trying to hurry up and get ready for work! ugh, well at least i made it on time.  still doing fine on the diet, gearing up for kyeron's birthday party, i just found out the pump it up i had his party at last year is closed, so now i'm trying to figure out where i should have it.  hmmm... he is trying to decide whether he should have a spongebob cake or a spider man cake... ugggh!

r1 p3 day11

so, i weigh 193.8 and i hate myself, because i am so relieved that i cheated, sooo bad, and i didn't gain any extra weight, (so basically i'm mad at ME the same way i was mad at my sister and the other girl that went on the diet with me) I know it's lame, and kind of "special" but, i guess my punishment was that i had a blistering headache and an even worse temper after i ate the sugar.  I swear, sugar is worse than meth, I was never addicted to meth the way i am apparently addicted to sugar! lol. 

So, on a different note, i love groupon, i frequently buy groupons, and i kick out awesome ones onto my facebook page, BUUUUUUT i'm kinda pissed about my bath and body works one.  so i bought the 15 dollars for 30 bucks in product groupon, (online only) and go shopping, get my jap cherry blossom this that, yada yada, oh, look i can add a 25 dollar gift bag (valued at 100 bucks) for 25(!) score!!! so i add that, go to add my groupon, and i get no other discounts, i don't even get the 7.99 shipping discount, what a rape, so i call and find out, why can't i get the buy 3 get 2, or the 25 dollar bag, well, because i guess BUYING the groupon is a promotion, and i can't use two PROMOTIONS online... drat, i am kinda pissed about it, but now i want to go to bath and body works to see if they have the bag in store... and buy 40 dollars MORE worth of crap, just to PAY 25 bucks for a BAG! (stupid and horrible right? well, i never called myself brilliant) anyway, just had to vent about that!

i made better oopsie rolls yesterday, my sister showed me whats up with them, my other ones were more like oopsie pancakes.  i'm excited to try something on these bad boys today, i don't know what to do with them though... what should i pretend i'm having today?

r1 p3 day 10

waaaaaaaaaaaaa i want chocolate! but, i was good today, some tuna, some gum, skinny latte, and i'm a little bettter, honestly i should have done a steak day today, but we'll see how much i've gained in a couple few day's, i never agree with my weight on the weekend anyway,

oh, my will is weak, and my TOM strong... aka r1 p3 day 9...

so, i knew TOM was coming, because i'm like a 13 year old, i break out, and i get all jerkfacey, and i want nothing but SUGAR, and i'm hungry, ALL THE TIME! so, today i almost cried i wanted a bagel so bad, and not a whole wheat one, or an everything, but those DAMN crunch bagels, they look soo freaking good.  i said no, hot fresh chocolate chunk cookies anyone? crunchy on the outside, gooey on the inside, i said no thanks, but then i get home and i eat half a bag of pork rinds, a sugar free jello, 5 pieces of shrimp left over from whatever night that was, a tuna sandwich on ezekiel bread, THEN i see MY BOX OF GINGER SNAPS, yes, that same box i flipped out on my sister for because i thought that she opened the only box we had, and they were going to be ruined by the time i got to them, well, guess what, it was opened! so i freaked out, and ate like 6 of them, drank like 3 glasses of milk with it too, and now i have this roaring raging headache, i really could just throw up, but i want another one... i'm so sad right now! lol, i can't believe i made it all that way, only to cheat and basically ruin it! we'll see, but i know all the gain i have tomorrow will be sugar and carbs and not TOM

r1 p3 day8

so not much to report today, stall, which is GREAT! grouchy today, but happy that i got out of work early, (for once!) and happy that i'm getting a sizable amount back in taxes! yay for me!

food:
bfast- iced tea, and a naked juice
lunch- tuna salad on ezekiel bread, soooo good, how have i gone this long WITHOUT it?!?
dinner- chicken, cabbage, and a salad
dessert, a smooooooothie, mmm, i've been a little short on my water intake today, i'm going to drink a gallon hit the shower, and go to bed! see you guys later!

and ERICA... MMMMMMM CHEDDAR BAY BISCUITS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

R1 p3 day7

Gained two pounds today, but I'm still within two pounds of my ldw, I did cheat a little last night and had a chocolate riesin, ugh it was good! I thought it wouldn't taste as good, but it really did! But I'm makin oopsie rolls today, I will tell you how they turn out... mine were kinda flat, so i tried doing the rest of it in muffin pans... they just taste like quiche boo! the flat ones are good, i had a slice of cheese on one, it was, mmm ok, they sure don't look anything like Erica's! my sister is going to try to make some when she gets home, if i had just used the egg whites they would have been HUGE! i do something wrong when i fold the cream cheese mixture in.  my sister and i are going to try this lime tilapia recipe tonight, subbing cauliflower for rice.  i will let you know how it goes.  so, today i had 2 oranges, a handful of pork rinds, some tuna fish with onions and green peppers, mayo and pepper, on a bed of spinach, and that oopsie roll with a slice of cheese, i still have shrimp left over from yestrefay, maybe if cauil rice is good i will have that with some green beans for lunch tomorrow.  kyeron has had cookies, and suckers and gold fish, i've been workin on potty training hard core today, so it's been all rewards, no punishment, we even went to the park for a couple hours and he stayed dry. his sucker smells good, but i've had a headache all day, i'm sure it's from the illegal suar last night... i'm about to take some exederin and whine a little, lol
UPDATE- just so you know, cauli-rice was delicious! i will definitely be doing that again, it takes a while, but it really does look and texture like rice, tastes pretty good too! tried it with this lime tilapia, here is the recipe, i subbed liq aminos for the soy sauce,

Ginger Lime Tilapia – 4 servings (30 min total)

1 1/3 lb Tilapia

1 c White rice

1 T Garlic, minced

1 T Ginger, minced

1/3 c Lime juice

2 T Soy sauce

1. Preheat oven to 450 degrees.

2. Prepare white rice according to package directions- this should just require adding olive oil

and water, boiling, and then covering to simmer for 20 minutes.

3. Mix garlic, ginger, lime juice, and soy sauce.

4. In a glass baking dish, place tilapia fillets in a single layer and cover with mix.

5. Bake 15 minutes. Tilapia is done when it is the same color inside and out.

Ginger Lime Tilapia

Per Serving: 202 Cal; 34 g Protein; 0 g Tot Fat; 0 g Sat Fat; 0 g Mono Fat; 13 g Carb;

1 g Fiber; 1 g Sugar; 8 mg Calcium; 0 mg Iron; 458 mg Sodium; 76 mg Cholesterol

help me figure out the carbs?>??

dying  to try this!

Cauli-flied Rice

Serves 4 as a main course, 8 as a side dish
This is a pan-Asian mix combining flavours and techniques from China, Thailand and Vietnam. Chinese like their fried rice to be white, Thais like the flavour of golden fried garlic and Vietnamese like to add a bit of black pepper.
You can use raw meat, shrimp or prawns. Just make sure it’s in small pieces and thoroughly cooked before adding the eggs.
If you’re used to the darker version, add a splash of soy sauce - go easy or the rice may be too wet - and reduce the salt.
You can use this without the meat as a side dish. A friend just loves it with crumbled feta, olive oil and chopped tomato on top. The variations are endless: a bit of curry powder, some grated lemon rind to go with fish, some chili powder…

• 2 lbs. trimmed cauliflower
• 4 Tbsp. vegetable oil
• 4 cloves garlic, minced
• 3-4 cups diced, cooked meat
• 3 eggs
• 1 tsp. salt
• 2 green onions, thinly sliced
• 1/2 tsp. freshly ground black pepper

Grate the cauliflower using the medium sized holes of a grater. Grate the core too. With your hands squeeze out as much water as you can. This may not be necessary for some cauliflower as they vary in degree of wetness.
Over high heat, heat the oil (bacon fat can be used here too) in a wok or large heavy frying pan and add the garlic. Stir-fry until pale gold. Add the meat and fry until lightly browned. Break in the eggs and fry until softly scrambled. Add the grated cauliflower, sprinkle with salt and stir and fry until it’s tender-crisp, about 5-8 minutes. The length of time will depend on the cauliflower.
Stir in the green onion and pepper. Check the seasoning and serve.
Total Carbohydrates: 55Total Carbohydrates Minus Fiber: 37.68Carbohydrates per Serving (4): 13.75Carbohydrates per Serving minus Fiber (4): 9.42Carbohydrates per Serving (8): 6.87Carbohydrates per Serving minus Fiber (8): 4.71

R1 P3 DAY 6

by the way, no loss, no gain today...
  ugh, what a frustrating day, i wish my boss would just chill out, just a little bit, she's a lot better than she used to be, but she is still such a horse pill sometimes! so, i was STARVING today, started the 100 box lunch at about 9:30, had a skinny iced caramel latte this morning, ohhhh soooo good, and split in half with more coffee it was fanfreakingtastic! lunch was a trio bar, snack was about 3 servings of pork rinds... ugh, i hate that i love those things so much... but 0 carbs, and 8 grams of protein, and i think they are helping... move things along... you know?  aaanyway, about a gallon of water and i had shrimp and spinach for dinner, and and orange for a snack.  i'm so glad my carb cravings went away.  anyway, i'm going to take a shower and go to bed, btw, my manacure is totally gone! lol, but we'll see about tomorrow!

r1 p3 day 5

ugggh i can't wait till i'm allowed to have rice... seriously, this is sad.  I don't crave bagels, but i am getting sick of lettuce wraps! i need to go get some ezekiel  bread!  ugh, i just work so much that i'm lazy, and i don't want to! so, maybe on thursday, since i'm off, hopefully everything goes as planned for tomorrow, we have a 100 box lunch catering order, and then thursday we have a 3 lg box order, i'm excited to be getting the orders, but ugggh, why do they have to order on my day off?  anyway, today i had


a tuna wrap for breakfast, yellow mustard, sprouts, green peppers, lettuce (duh) and roasted red peppers


lunch- bruegger's chicken salad (mayo, salt pepper, cranberries, almonds, diced chicken, and a hint of tarragon, verrrrrry delicious!) more sprouts green peppers, tomato, and more red peppers. i thought about going next door to jimmy johns for dinner, but i figured i better eat at home for once...


dinner- chinese sausage and broccoli, (the whole reason i'm craving rice!) I might have a piece of fruit or a smoothie before i go to bed i'm still hungry

r1 p3 day....4

sorry i didn't come back and finish my blog that night, i had spinach and steak for dinner, it wasn't very good! yesterday i had the day from hell-o and i don't want to talk about it, lets just say that i broke down and ate a whole bag of pork rinds, and well, i'm paying for it today, i've only been up an hour, and i've pooped 3 times... who would have thought right? well, yesterday i had a couple of tuna wraps, and scallops, and asparagus, and then for a snack i had coconut shrimp, fried, ohhh man that was good! no rice... no bread, i was doing well. Now i'm going to wal-mart to get an oil pan so that my baby daddy can fix my friends car, and give me an oil change, i will check back in later, it's my day off, and after the week i've had i'm going to get a mani pedi with my friend, and RELAX!

mani pedi went amazing! ahh, hot stone massage, massage chairs, why have i never done this before? i really loved it, they had this huge candy dish with peanut m&ms and almond joys (two of my top tens...) i am proud to announce that i didn't eat any, i just pulled out my trio bar (since now i think they are ok to eat, i've been keeping over 1500 and still loosing weight) and munched away quietly at that while i waited on my friend to get there.  ok, so on my days off kyeron usually takes a nap 1-4 and then we go to bed by 8:30, well because my appt lasted until 330, and his dad got him all sugar cracked out, we took a nap (yup we) from like 5pm till 930, and now i'm going to try to get him to bed, and finish my laundry, and go to bed too~
g'night you guys~

R1 P3 DAY 2

so, i gained half a pound today, waa, i think it might be from those trio bars, i ate one thursday, and two yesterday, ugggh, it has some sort of rice malt in it, i checked the basic criteria and it was ok by the "red book" standards... oh well, i will quit eating them for the time being, and see what happens.

so, today so far i've had:

bfast-lettuce wrap with a spinach egg, and one egg white, (from work) 1 slice munster cheese, sprouts, green peppers, and onions, just a little bit of yellow mustard on top, it was really good

lunch- 8oz of tilapia cooked with chacheries and minced garlic, simmered in water, and bok choy cooked with a little butter, garlic, ginger, scallions, and a couple shakes of liquid aminos, i let the veggies sit just a little too long, but they were still pretty tasty. 

I'm still trying to think of what i'm going to make for dinner, i really want to try to make those oopsie rolls soon... maybe i will go get the stuff today.

r1 p3 day 1

is that how i do that? anyway, i did pretty good, mostly...

I felt kinda hungry today, and i had a little hard of a time (right, that sentence makes sense... lol) not eating when i wasn't hungry, like when i ate, and sorta felt full, but wasn't bulging, or in pain, i wanted to eat more, when i knew i shouldn't.  anyway, i think i did alright, and i lost .1 today... i'm nervous about tomorrow...

food log

2 trio bars total, one in the morning, and one in the afternoon, they are REALLY REALLY GOOOOOOOOOOD!
lunch- lettuce wrap with tuna, sprouts, basil, mustard, green peppers, pickles, and onions, REALLY GOOD!
dinner- bunless burger with cheddar and jalapeno's and a salad.

ldw

my ldw is 193.4! yay! putting me at 23.2 pounds lost so far! oh yeah, oh yeah! i really thought it would be unbareable, but i'm glad i get to start the maintenence round... i'm already kinda hungry, still on the 500 for 3 1.5 days... took my last drops at about 10am yesterday.  sooo, i cheated today with a p3 food, it's a mrs mary's trio bar, 3 fruits 3 nuts 3 seeds, i had it about 8 pm, which makes it more horrible, but hopefully my body will realize i just wanted to make sure i was going to be happy with it tomorrow, corporate walk through, so no food in the walk in that isn't bruegger's, and no drops means i'm going to feel a little hungry...

food log
bfast- 2 shots of nespresso, 1T of milk and hazelnut stevia.
snack- strawberry smoothie (same as before)
dinner- steak and lettuce, in a fat free beef broth
snack- half of a trio bar :(  fail!

r1 vlcd19

so, today was my last day of drops, yay! i almost cheated about 5 times today, but i didn't, i'm so proud of myself! i'm hoping i loose weight tomorrow and the next two days even though i'm off the drops.  and guess what, my 3 year old likes scallops! haha, he calls them "fishy eggs" because they look like boiled eggs, but they taste like fish.  it was really cute! I'm so stressed out with work, we had a burglary alarm go off sunday, the kettle (that we boil the bagels in) was broken on tuesday, we're having a corporate walk through on friday, and it's impossible to keep that store clean in the SNOW that decided to show up right before... sometimes i wish i was still smoking! how stressful! and the "kids" (my employees) think they can just do what they want, and make my decisions for me... i thought about firing one of them today... until she apologized. buuuuut, i lost .6 today, and i'm happy for it. the pair of work pants i wore today were falling off, literally, every 5 minutes, but i was in a rush today and didn't think to check before i left.

 Erica, when you and Amanda measure, where all do you measure? I'm going to take mine tomorrow.

food log

bfast- iced tea, i was horrible, i had two, GIANT, ones
snack- apple
lunch- cucumber and chicken
snack- grissini, and an apple
dinner- scallops and spinach, sooo good!
snack- loooooots of water!
so excited about p3

r1 vlcd18

so, good day today, i didn't get to eat my lunch until 6:30, so i only ate one real meal today.  but i'm so excited that tomorrow is my last day of drops, i'm sooooo tired, and i need to go to bed, so, wish me luck!

food log
bfast- tea
snack- strawberries
snack- grissini
lunch/dinner- shrimp and cabbage.
time to take a shower  g'night ya'll!

r1 vlcd17

uugh, i want a cookie, so bad! my sister and i got these lemon ginger snap cookies, and she OPENED THEM today!!! I smelled them! OHHH they smell so good, and i want TACO BELL, uuugh.  I AM looking forward to making oopsie rolls, and eating cheese and my protein bars on p3! I went shopping at kmart because they have a 40% off winter clearance, and got me and kyeron a coat, and some jammies for kyeron, took them out to lunch, and went shopping.  ugh, it is way passed my bedtime, so, i'm going to go.

food log
bfast- strawberry smoothie, same as yesterday, but i added lemon juice
snack- grissini, apple grissini over 5 hours while we were shopping, oh, taco bell smelled so good!
lunch- chicken ceaser no ceaser, no cheese, no croutons, no carrots, from mcdonalds
dinner- celery and shrimp, mmm shrimp was soooo good! and i feel like we get so much more for our 100 grams! yum!!!

by the way, i lost over a pound today, i'm really glad, i'm super close to my 20# mark, and i probably have about 3 or 4 days of drops left.

r1 vlcd 16

ok, so, really sad, but i understand about you guys Mia, and Erica, I really honestly hope and pray that it all works out for you two in the end! I'm so ready for p3 i could die! lol. we were really busy at work again today, i guess i should be happy that we've been busy, buuut, i'm not, because i'm tired, and super crabby.  anyway, i'm off tomorrow, and excited to see what "real" weight i'm at.  weighed in today at 4:05 and it said 197.5 weighed when i got home, after drinking 32 ounces of water and it said that i weighed 198.1 so i'm pretty sure i'm doing good for my last week of p2.

food log
bfast- iced tea, 2 slices of apple to sweeten
snack- apple
lunch- celery and tilapia
snack- grissini, strawberry drink with 7 strawberries lemon drop and vanilla stevia, omgosh it was sooo good!
dinner- tilapia and spinach in liquid aminos.

r1 vlcd15.

well, i started off today thinking i was going to do an apple day, but... i'm just too hungry, so, i've already had my two fruits for today, haha, i think i lost enough today anyway, i weighed in today at 198 flat, so that's a .8 loss, yay(!) and that was at 4:15am! anyway, we were really really busy at work today, so, i was extra hungry.  i'm glad that this round is almost over, i think even with all the preparation i had going into this diet i will be so happy to have a break from it.  hopefully i will lose over 20 this round, and maintain it.  i think i'm going to do a 6 week round next time, hopefully get more accomplished with it.  i need to send my order in for drops already.  (can you tell i just got done with work, and i'm running through my mind all kinds of stuff all at once (this is what i do at work too)) it's like multi-tasking on crack!

food log
bfast- iced tea and an apple
snack- an apple
lunch- tilapia and the rest of the cuc salad from yesterday
snack- one grissini
dinner- tilapia and celery, pam steamed, it was really good, actually i made it again so i could have it for lunch tomorrow. 

r1 vlcd14

not much to report today, i've been getting kinda crabby lately.  I'm glad this round is almost over, did you know that you can have POPCORN on p3??? i don't know why i'm so excited about that.  anyway, i lost .2 lbs today, so it's an apple day tomorrow. Is there some rule about not doing two apple days in a row? i'm supposed to get off early tomorrow, hopefully it all works out.

food log

bfast- iced tea
snack- apple
snack- apple
lunch- chicken and asparagus
dinner- grissini and chickenwith creole seasoning and cucumber with salt pepper and apple cider vinegar
snack- grissini

I want a bite of my son's corndog!

r1 vlcd13

so, i weighed myself today and i'm still at 199.1, i'm going to take some smooth move tea.  I think that today might be a stall gain day because i had a lot of sugar last night, i ate an orange at the movie theatre while kyeron and his friend sidney had popcorn... i also had 2 pieces of gum. I would do an apple day today, but i have meat in the fridge we have to use before it goes bad, i'm one of those people, if you think you should smell it, then it's no good... between my sister and i, i think that we can use it all, but because i used the canned chicken at work, and i ate at the other girl on the diet's house and used the rest of it, the meat in the fridge is on it's 2nd or 3rd day.  i've had a half of a grapefruit so far, (also left over from yesterday) but i think i am going to stick to apples till monday or so.  maybe i will do double apple days on the weekend and see where that goes.
 Erica, i don't want to do a 6 week round because my son's birthday is in february, and  i want to be able to have cake and ice cream at his birthday, if i push his party a week back i will be off maintenance then. I am planning on doing a 6 week round next time though, i'm ordering two bottles of drops for myself for then.   I was wondering, does the MSM not interfer with protocol? or Bre, the collagen +c stuff? I want to start taking it, but i don't get how it wouldn't interfer with the diet.  I'm honestly so glad i started blogging, it really helps me stay honest, and have willpower to have you guys! thanks so much for reading my blog, and commenting, and helping me through my first of many rounds! especially since both the girls i'm doing this round with are cheaters! my sister and i are chinese, and we grew up with this candy, it's called puun, it's dried plum candy with a lot of salt, licorice spice, and preservatives, they are really good, if you have an acquired taste for them, well, anytime someone new starts working at NREL, the rest of the people consider it a right of passage to talk the newbie into trying it, well, my sister couldn't hand out the bag without having a couple herself, i haven't talked to her today, so i don't even know if she stalled, but it makes it hard to know that they are cheating and they aren't that far behind me.  my sister has all but caught up to me, and the other girl has lost 14 pounds... so what's one bite of crunch bagel? just kidding, 95%... i'll post more later, today's my day off, so i'm just going to do laundry and stuff.

food log
bfast- 1/2 a grapefruit
snack grissini
lunch- spinach and chicken
snack- apple and grissini
dinner - bison and asparagus

we went to costco today, ohhh man, all the samples, and the food, and desserts... tempting! this last week is going to be hard!

r1 vlcd12

so, i weighed myself at 430 this morning and i weighed 200.7, i really think it's a misweigh, so, i'm just going to pretend that i stalled until tomorrow.  my friend says she can weigh herself all throughout the day, and she weighs the same, my weight fluctuates like 6 pounds during the day, and i have to pee, seriously 10-15 times a day, we just went to see Narnia, and i had to leave to go potty 3 times... that's ridiculous! by the way, it really really sucks going to the movie and not getting to eat popcorn, i guess i have gone to the movies without getting popcorn a couple times in my life, but to know i'm going and can't, and to smell it, EVERYWHERE, ohhh, it make my stomach actually rumble, really loudly. 
  But on the positive, everyone at work is asking me about the diet though ( i mean the customers, the employees are already all on board) so, i know it's working and working well! so, my food log for today is

bfast- 64 oz of iced tea, i know a LOT, but i was really sad that the guy at starbucks (we call him girl scout because when we leave he says peace out girl scout) that knows what i can and can't have and makes me this miracle in a cup wasn't there, so i overdosed on iced tea today.
lunch and dinner- chicken and asparagus, i diced the asparagus and shredded the chicken, and made a sorta salad out of it for lunch, and then made it like a soup for dinner.
half a grapefruit in the afternoon, an orange at the movie...
i've had over a gallon of water so far. i hope that the scale is nice to me tomorrow

r1 vlcd11

uggggh, almost half way through and the cravings are getting bad! it's so hard working around bagels, and cream cheese, and CINNAMON CRUNCH ROLLS! and cookies, and fresh bread, :(  mmm, butter... ahh, anyway, looong day at work, inventory day, lost half a pound, i'm so happy that starbucks didn't make me stall! (that means i'm planning on having another one tomorrow) we went to whole foods and got the liquid aminos, and stevia drops, so i was really... impatient today, well, and that turned into rage pretty quickly, lets just say i was captain Beepy of the bagelprise.... anyone who even looked at me crosswise at the store got the worst deep clean imaginable... i'm so ready for a day off,

so my food log

bfast- iced tea,
snack- apple
lunch asparagus and tilapia
snack- grissini
lunch- apple cabbage and tilapia cooked in liquid aminos.  i think i used too much, my lips feel all dry

r1 vlcd10

199.6 whoop whoop! thats 2.2lbs! apple day success! i am worried that i wont be able to weigh myself properly tomorrow though, another 5am day... so far today i've just had drops and an apple... and lots of water. i'm thinking about espresso... mmm probably will have espresso!

oh and bre, you asked if i had food dreams? well, i just had one last night, dreamt that ky and i were sitting on the couch, and he was eating chips, i reached over and ate like two handfuls and then realized what i was doing. i debated whether to throw it up, or eat another handful... then i woke up.  When i was in my addiction (i had a major drug problem, i've been clean 4 years june 2nd...)  we called them using dreams, i only ever had two, and both of them were SOOO crazy! that's what it reminded me of. that's how i know food is really an addiction for me. and in real life my son really does eat right in front of me, he doesn't know, but i let him hang out right next to me and eat chips because then at least i can smell them and pretend, lol!

going shopping tonight, i'm starving... i've already had a gallon of water, working on my next half gallon now. 

food log
bfast- water
snack-apple... i don't like pink lady's anymore, lol
lunch- tilapia and spinach boy that tony chacheri's or how ever you spell it is GREAT!
snack- smoothie juice of half a lemon 6 strawberries and 16oz water and a hint of vanilla
dinner- tilapia and hopefully asparagus- well that was the plan, but i made kyeron a hamburger with salt and pepper and he only ate half of it, so i ate the other half as my protein, cabbage as the veggie, ohhhh man that was really good! hopefully i don't stall tomorrow, cuz i'm full fat and happy tonight! (i feel like this meal is like when you're bowling, and you get a strike, and then a gutterball!) but oh i looooove it!

also- i've lost 6.5 inches, off my
neck .5
chest-1
bicep-1
waist-1
hips-2
thigh-1 (so would that be two, since i have two? lol) is there anywhere else you guys measure that i'm missing? i also did my wrist, but it didn't change, and my calf, i have really muscular legs so i doubt they will be getting any smaller.

r1 vlcd9

holy smokes, what a DAY! i set my alarm clock wrong, so i was late to work, didn't weigh myself, i weigh 201.8 now though, so i know that i will lose weight tomorrow, my sister, (who i've been less than this WHOLE diet, except the first two days) now weighs in less than me... argh, i'm a little bit jealous now... lol, i'm still "winning" in total pounds lost, but... now i guess i understand what you're talking about Mia! i also get the apple breath thing.  we were so slow at the bagel shop today, really busy even with the "blizzard" going on outside, but we got a lot of deep cleaning done.   so, here's my food log

breakfast-water-starving
snack-water....SO starving
lunch apple, hour late and i was the biggest...crab apple ever, sliced one and ate it while i was slacking dough.
snack/dinner- apple... and an apple and another one,
then ky and i shared one for dessert... mmm 6 apples... i wonder if we can do different kinds,

R1 VLCD8

ugh, so... i'm pretty sure it's impossible to weigh myself when i open the store.  It means i have to get up at 4:15 to get here by 4:45 (now that my sister and i are roommates it's way easier, but i waste that time sleeping and not "waking up" so, when i get up in the morning i weigh myself, and it is always even, yesterday i woke up, made coffee, took my drops weighed myself, and it was .2, today i weighed myself and i was even.  I haven't really eaten a lot today (not even a full meal) since i've started. but i did have a coffee, and an iced tea, and about a gallon of water, i just reweighed myself and it said 205.something sad.... soo, i don't know i guess tomorrow is an apple day, just to be sure, no coffee no tea, i also did a detox bath yesterday, and i know it worked, my pee was clear when i went into the bath, and the next two were GREEN! well, really light green, but green! uuuugh, so frustrating! I will probably update later, but i'm feeling a little sad right now :(
 on the plus side though, i can see a lot of difference, mostly in my neck, i know that sounds weird but it looks longer and more slender.  my pants are fitting nicely too!
food log
bfast-2shot espresso, with 1T milk from starbucks, ff, sf
lunch- 100g chicken, iced tea, orange
snack cucumber
i will probably just have an apple for dinner...

r1 vlcd7

ugh, so close to a stall and it makes me soo sad! .2 pounds today, i'm 90% sure it's from the stevi-yaki.  first day i haven't lost at least a pound.  i'm doing a detox bath tonight, and drinking some smooth move tea it's been a couple days, and my back is starting to hurt.  you guys asked me about my friend that started with me, (my sister has explicitly told me i'm "not allowed to talk about [her] on this thing..." well, she decided to cook what she's decided was about half a pound of hamburger, ground (as in helper style, not burger style... that makes sense right?) and she gained a pound today, she called me right away to confess. but she started at 191 and until today she was at 179.8 so all in all she is doing really well too.  i didn't get to eat my lunch until 4:30, again,  and well, i just at dinner at 7... that probably isn't good for the diet.  it really isn't in my control during the day though.  i get off early tomorrow, i'm looking forward to it.

food log
bfast- 32 oz iced tea
snack .5 grissini and an apple
lunch- tilipia and asparagus
dinner-tilipia and cucumber and a grissini while it was cooking.


dessert, kyeron and i shared an apple... he's such a good little eater!

r1 vlcd6

so, Mia, did you know tokyo joe's has a stevi-yaki sauce? well, i was stupid and i tried it, just a liiiiittle bit, i'm hoping i dont gain after that.  if i don't, i might use the rest... ugh, i'm freaking out a little.

so, my food log today goes like this:
breakfast expresso- 1t milk and 2 stevia packets, lots of water
lunch- chicken and broccoli (1t of sauce...) I brought my own lunch, but when i saw the stevi-yaki i decided to try it
snack apple and grissini
dinner-tilipia and spinach, i have to eat it before it goes bad. 
I might skip my other fruit for the day, but if i don't it'll be another apple. 
i got some extra sugar free gum today, Erika's suggestion, they have MINT CHOCOLATE CHIP! and STRAWBERRY SHORT CAKE holy guacamole people!  i couldn't find the key lime pie one... so jealous! i tried the mint one earlier holy freakin cow people, o-so-delicioso! maybe i will have a shortcake one for dessert! 

well, in the time it's taken me to do this post, i already ate dinner, super good, and snacked on a grissini, i think i WILL have that apple. i do feel really good today, like the worst is over and i can handle it the rest of the way, i really AM greatful i have you girls, and the girl im doing it with!

ERICA i'm soooo sorry that i've been spelling your name wrong, i was going through your and Mia's old blogs for inspiration, and i saw you write your name, i'm soo sorry! hope you see this (and that you didn't say phooey on her, she doesn't even want to spell my name write!) i'm dying for chocolate delight, oopsie rolls, ezekiel bread... etc! yum....

r1 vlcd5

ahh, i just had the most satisfying dinner i've had all round 1!!! so, i'm at 203.6 pretty good. that's another pound, but i guess i'm starting to level off, i should be drinking more water!  uuugh we were so busy at the store today, i didn't even get to eat my LUNCH until 4:45, i was sooo hungry i was being MEAN! lol!!!
anyway, i'm off tomorrow, i will do a real blog then, i'm starting to see a difference in my belly now!

food log
breakfast- tea and water, i used an apple slice to sweeten
snack- rest of said apple
lunch- asparagus and tilapia mmm, so good
no snack 
dinner- ground beef patty and roma tomato... mmmmmmm my new favorite! if i don't stall i will definitely be adding this to the most frequent!

r1 vlcd4

uuugh, i'm so tired today, worked from 6am to 8pm came home cooked dinner for kyeron, nuked my dinner, ate it, made my lunch (so i can nuke it for lunch tomorrow  :/  ) and know i'm talking you you guys... my hcg fam bam! soo, i lost quite a bit today, 3.4 oh yeah! that puts me at 12 pounds total! yay! i wanted to cheat all day today, sooo bad today, but i didn't just drank more water, and was sad about more water.  do any of you guys use the pure via packets? I bought them at costco (i even had a coupon!) they have dextrose like splenda does, i thought i was being all protocol like with it, but i think i might be wrong? where did you guys get yours?

ok so food log goes
 b-fast- iced tea, two stevia packets (cringe)
snack- grissini
snack- small orange
lunch- spinach and chicken (i didn't get to eat until about 1:30, i was soooooooooo hungry!)
snack- i split my apple into thirds, and cut those into slices, then i just snacked on it the rest of the day.  I do inventory on tuesday's so i never know how late i will be there, plus we just went through price increases, and new banners, and blah blah blah... ugh, i'm glad i'm done, and going to bed soon.  oh yeah, my food log...
dinner- chicken and onions... i didn't want to make it, but well, i did, and actually out of all my meals, this is the fullest i've been afterward... i'm so excited about my lunch tomorrow, boiled tex mex tilipia and asparagus... YUM!

r1 vlcd3

ok, so, i know how people freak out when they gain even the slightest, "no way, i'm going to reweigh myself" "what is WRONG WITH this SCALE!?!" weeeeeeell, i did the same thing this morning, but for the OPPOSITE reason! i lost 5 pounds this morning! that's more than i lost the first two days, (even though the first loss day was like christmas because it was right after a gorge day.  well, so when i weighed myself first off it said 207.8 now it's saying 208 so i'm going to go with the heavier one, just means i will see a bigger loss tomorrow, right? more later... i was just too excited not to share!

um, about 4:15 pm
alright, so today i really wanted to have a greek smoothie, i've been dying for one everytime i open the fridge and see the giant tub i bought at costco. 

so breakfast- water... lots of it
snack- half a grissini, and a greek smoothie (5 strawberries the smallest most pitiful amount of greek yogurt that doesn't even look like more than a bite! that equaled 99.4 grams!) and some water and ice to blend it i split it up into two portions because i wasn't sure if i could go all day with a liquid protein, ended up drinking the rest soon thereafter.
lunch- iced tea with a spinach salad with lemon, pepper and salt... it was pretty good, but my stomach hates me...
snack half an apple, the other half i'm saving for dessert, i made some Cinnamon grissini stevia struessel mix (smells really good) and its sitting on my apple waiting for me to eat dinner!
dinner- tilipia, and steamed broccoli.  I've been using this tex mex seasoning that my sister has, smoked paprika, garlic, salt and pepper, its awesome.
dessert- said half apple i've been pining for all day!

you know, i was off today, so i made Kyeron (my almost 3 year old son) pancakes and eggs for breakfast, and some sliced peaches, holy moley, i never thought anything could smell just soooooo delicious! ugh, i just wanted one little taste, i told my sister yesterday, i wonder if you can gain by huffing the smell. I just gave him some pizza and broccoli for dinner (yep, same broccoli) he keeps stealing my grissini! ugh, even fruit roll ups smell good!
  my friend jeff and i have a play date at fun city, and then i'm coming home to make dinner for my sister and i.  get this, my sister had a coke on her vlcd1 and she STILL lost 2 pounds... i'm a little upset, she said she considers it part of her loading day because it's "how you define a 24 hr period.  well, i hope she either starts taking it more seriously, or she starts gaining, because i am going to be unbelievably upset if she continues to drink coke and not gain. alright, friends, i'm going to go take some drops, finish my laundry and then off to fun city, see ya later!

r1 vlcd2

down another 1.6! yay! uuugh, i'm so tired! i've worked a lot this weekend at home and at work, i can't wait till tomorrow, maybe i will get to sleep in.  so, not as hungry today, but still kind of hungry, i think i'm going to try to save a fruit and do a dessert thing with it, the grapefruit or the apple crisp thing. ugh, i've been craving sweets so bad! I don't really even eat them in real life, but when i can't have them... 

so today my meals were

breakfast- iced tea one stevia, one grissini
lunch-tilipia and broccoli, part of my apple
snack- the rest of my apple, and grissini
2nd snack, apple
dinner shrimp and broccoli

i've been kind of moody lately too, i'm wondering if its the drops, or lack of sleep.  so, i've been doing some reading and stuff, i thought before i started this diet that greek yogurt or cottage cheese was allowed? was i wrong and those are p3 foods? if so i'm soo sad, because i bought both of those things (and i love them not on the diet) i think tomorrow i'm going to do tuna and asparagus.  I'm excited for the asparagus, i loooove it.  well, i'm going to drink some water and go to bed,

uh, i think this goes r1 vlcd 1...

so, weighed in this morning at 214.6, i'm baffled by this because not long before bed on my load day i had 4 pieces of pizza! so today my menu was

bfast- iced tea

snack-half an apple

lunch-chicken with lemon salt and pepper and spinach and the rest of my apple

dinner- tilipia with lemon and cabbage

i'm still HUNGRY! lol, my co-worker says she hasn't been hungry ALL day! i can't believe it... anyway, i'm going to drink a bunch of water and go to bed.  but before i do i have a question, does everyone um... go poo poo potty a lot at the beginning of the diet? i must have gone like 8 times yesterday, and 3 today...