r2 vlcd11

so, i ate protocol all day today, and i think TOM is finally going to go away, i will start weighing myself tomorrow. 

on a different note:
So, about that c-junky i was so happy to call my boyfriend... he's probably a douche bag, i didn't finish listening to his bullstank long enough to tell for sure, but i know i don't want to be with him, it started out with him calling and texting, not only every day, but multiple times a day, stopping by my work to "say hi" and blah blah blah, well, then after hanging out at his house, just us, (just pg13 stuff, not even nc17 stuff....) he stayed in routine for a day or so, and then fell off the face of the earth for two whole days.  I half thought he lost his phone (he left it with me on accident twice) but still thought it was weird, called him and texted him once a day, no response. then i texted him and said i don't know what happened, but i'm taking you out of my phone, call me when you want to talk about whatever the hell is going on.  well, he texted back, basically saying he didn't want to deal with his baby momma drama and that he wanted to talk to me in person about it, today.  then today he was texting me back and forth saying how excited he was that i was going to talk to him, and he was cooking dinner, and blah blah blah, i get to his house, and he's trying to hug me and kiss me and stuff, and i'm just like, um, we aren't there yet buddy... i took kyeron pottty in his bathroom and he reached for the trash bag, i took it away from him and there were two tampons on top, in the trash, i'm just thinking a million things but i say nothing, i want to know if he is going to devulge anything on his own.  so i go back to sitting on the couch, and i say, so what happened? he said i just needed a day to figure things out, she is psycho, and blah blah blah, i said would have been nice to get a heads up, he said, i was tired, and stressed out, and i just needed a day to relax, (meanwhile i'm thinking there were two days...) i said, so what did you do, he said specifically, i just hung out here ALONE with the bean (that's what he calls his son) and put his bedroom set together. so, that's at least lie number one. and then he had the nerve to tell me that i wouldn't understand what complications he has to deal with with his baby momma because I DON'T HAVE TO SHARE KYERON WITH ANYONE... uh, ky has a dad, and he sees him every week, and we are pretty dang honest with each other, (he knows lying to me is the quickest way to never see his son again) i think if he didn't play so many games in general she wouldn't be such a crazy psycho now.  so, i know that isn't diet related, but i had to get it off my chest, again, honestly, i don't even want to be his friend anymore.  and on top of it i wonder if he just had some creepy random chick there to do him because i wouldn't. uuugh, i sure do know how to pick them, apparently i like being a "man thief" (that's what the baby momma's always call me) and i also like being the "undercover girlfriend" i must be on some list or somthing, how do these creeps find me?!?

sorry about the cry fest guys, bre, i think you will do wonderful working out and eating better, erica, i can't wait till you are POPin with us! MIA you're amazing, you're one of my oldest, dearest friends, i wish we lived closer!