r2 vlcd23

i'm so sick, and i woke up to a .3 gain, so, today i'm going to have some chicken soup, and take my cough medicine, and eat cough drops, and drink echinecea (or how ever you spell it...) tea, and get better, then i will be back on track... just a couple days! hope you guys are all doing well!

r2 vlcd22

i have been doing apple days constantly, working too, i think i might just do it till i burn out, and then eating tilapia and stuff will be like a treat! i've only been eating two or three a day though, i don't want to burn out.  but i feel like i can make  up for lost time on the diet by doing that, i weigh 182 so, i  am almost half way there!

r2 vlcd22

so, monday i thought it was the 23rd... i don't know how... but anyway... apple day success, i lost like 3 pounds, and then i lost two again today! yay!!! i'm off tomorrow, going to cook breakfast for my boys, (kyeron jeff, and his son) and drink my fruit smoothie.  waffles, hasbrowns, eggs, hmm, i wonder if we have bacon... i'm going to watch jeff's son for him while he sleeps because he has to work a three man shift all by himself... poor baby! anyway, today i had cauliflower and lemon pepper chicken, and an apple.  thats it, lots of tea, lots of water. i'm happy i have my head in the game now!

R2 what shoulda been vlcd21 I think

I broke down last night, and not even with stuff I like! Well Mac and cheese is good, but pop tarts? Uuuuugh! Kyeron just kept waving it in my face and well, I finally took a bite, and then it was all down hill from there, I'm scared to see what the future weigh in has to hold for me... That was about 2 cups mac and cheese and a whe pop tart, plus a bite... I can tell ive lost inches still but the weight just isn't coming off like it was, maybe I'm at an old set point, but I am pretty sure I've never been this big except for when I was pregnant... 180s is still better than I thought I'd get on the diet, but I still have 3 weeks to go, and I will for sure be doing an apple day today!

R2 vlcd 21

Lost bother pound today. That puts me at 30lbs total! I'm almost half way there, I'm sad I haven't lost more this round but I am sure it is my fault with all the cheating I did the first two weeks. Hoping the last three weeks of the diet work out better!

r2 vlcd17

so, down another pound today, it really sucks my sister isn't on the diet with me, today i got home she was eating this black bean chips that smelled amazing, then pizza, then brats, now she's eating cold stone... :( but i want to be cute for summer, and i want to be back to a normal me weight, so i'm going to keep going, and chewing that gum, and being a mega grouch, going to the gym, and pretending to love it... by the way bre, zumba is my most favorite class! i loooooove it. i've been dying for a latte all day, just made some espresso for dinner, hopefully it'll all be alright in the am!

r2 vlcd16

well, i don't know what to do, if the cost and the rewards arent enough for me to stay on track with this diet, i don't know what will be! i didnt actually cheat today, but i basically cried because i couldn't eat a cookie or a bagel and cream cheese, i lost .6 today, i think that drinking all that water after eating those cookies really helped, but imagine where i'd be if i hadn't cheated at all, i'm going to go help jeff clean his house and then i'm going to bed! ERICA so excited to watch you back on HCG, i am praying you inspire me to finish this stupid 6 week round!

i love and hate hcg...aka r2 vlcd15

so, i was 188.6 today, but i'm totally going to gain, if not tomorrow, then the next day, for sure! i just ate like 20 stupid nilla wafers... how can they be so stinkin good. i drank like 2 extra gallons of water, and i think i'm going to try to do an apple day tomorrow... so i fail at round two! i'm still down a couple pounds... uuugh! 25 days to really hit it... i'm going to try to hit the gym 3 times a week too.

r2 vlcd 14

ahh, 189.8 so, i'm in the 180s, but barely, but more so than i should be, for sure the way i cheated on my period!  POPed today, and will aim to continue doing so for the rest of the diet.  Jeff and i are on the mend... he really did lose his phone, (he does all the time, in fact he came into the bagel shop i run yesterday to tell me he lost it again, and wanted to know if i had called or texted) he told his baby mama about us, and he bought me shoes and took me to the movies, more importantly, kyeron was sick when jeff came into the store to tell me he lost his phone, and jeff watched my whiney pukey child for me so i could finish inventory and so on.  plus he bought me shoes people, lol, mia,  you know that's my weakness! he doesn't really help me stay on the diet though, i don't know if i like that or not, on one hand it is nice to know he likes me the way i am, and he doesn't NOT want me to cheat, but on the other hand i wonder when i will cave when i'm hanging out with him.

anyway, i had a lettuce wrap with beef in it for lunch, and i had asparagus and tilapia for dinner, no fruit no grissini... about 20 whiffs of popcorn, and 5 or 6 deep inhales of funions... maaan, i don't even really like chips but those smelled fanfreakintastic! love you all, hope we are all shrinking in our own separate ways!

r2 vlcd11

so, i ate protocol all day today, and i think TOM is finally going to go away, i will start weighing myself tomorrow. 

on a different note:
So, about that c-junky i was so happy to call my boyfriend... he's probably a douche bag, i didn't finish listening to his bullstank long enough to tell for sure, but i know i don't want to be with him, it started out with him calling and texting, not only every day, but multiple times a day, stopping by my work to "say hi" and blah blah blah, well, then after hanging out at his house, just us, (just pg13 stuff, not even nc17 stuff....) he stayed in routine for a day or so, and then fell off the face of the earth for two whole days.  I half thought he lost his phone (he left it with me on accident twice) but still thought it was weird, called him and texted him once a day, no response. then i texted him and said i don't know what happened, but i'm taking you out of my phone, call me when you want to talk about whatever the hell is going on.  well, he texted back, basically saying he didn't want to deal with his baby momma drama and that he wanted to talk to me in person about it, today.  then today he was texting me back and forth saying how excited he was that i was going to talk to him, and he was cooking dinner, and blah blah blah, i get to his house, and he's trying to hug me and kiss me and stuff, and i'm just like, um, we aren't there yet buddy... i took kyeron pottty in his bathroom and he reached for the trash bag, i took it away from him and there were two tampons on top, in the trash, i'm just thinking a million things but i say nothing, i want to know if he is going to devulge anything on his own.  so i go back to sitting on the couch, and i say, so what happened? he said i just needed a day to figure things out, she is psycho, and blah blah blah, i said would have been nice to get a heads up, he said, i was tired, and stressed out, and i just needed a day to relax, (meanwhile i'm thinking there were two days...) i said, so what did you do, he said specifically, i just hung out here ALONE with the bean (that's what he calls his son) and put his bedroom set together. so, that's at least lie number one. and then he had the nerve to tell me that i wouldn't understand what complications he has to deal with with his baby momma because I DON'T HAVE TO SHARE KYERON WITH ANYONE... uh, ky has a dad, and he sees him every week, and we are pretty dang honest with each other, (he knows lying to me is the quickest way to never see his son again) i think if he didn't play so many games in general she wouldn't be such a crazy psycho now.  so, i know that isn't diet related, but i had to get it off my chest, again, honestly, i don't even want to be his friend anymore.  and on top of it i wonder if he just had some creepy random chick there to do him because i wouldn't. uuugh, i sure do know how to pick them, apparently i like being a "man thief" (that's what the baby momma's always call me) and i also like being the "undercover girlfriend" i must be on some list or somthing, how do these creeps find me?!?

sorry about the cry fest guys, bre, i think you will do wonderful working out and eating better, erica, i can't wait till you are POPin with us! MIA you're amazing, you're one of my oldest, dearest friends, i wish we lived closer!

r2 vlcd 10

so, im not going to weigh my self until after TOM, uuugh, cravings are horrible, i made a bagel with cream cheese yesterday, went all the way to my mouth, and then into the trash... i don't think i can do that again! lol, next time i will be taking a bite... hopefully there wont be a next time! anyway, had broccoli and tilapia for lunch, asparagus and steak for dinner is the plan. one apple one grapefruit.

UPDATE.... so, i was going to eat the last of the chocolate cake, then i threw it away, then i thought about taking it out of the trash, so i took the trash to the can in the garage... then i noticed we have fun sized snickers... i gave in and had one, then i started looking at the twix... haven't had one, just drank about half a gallon of water, and i'm going to go to bed... waaa, i wonder if it is TOM, or if i'm just using that as an excuse...

R2 vlcd9

So a .1 gain this morning, mother nature just had to throw TOM my way... Ugh!!!! I'm just going to keep doing what I know I should be and hopefully she goes away soon! Hope you all are losing like nobody's biz! Btw, kyeron is 100% potty trained! Oh yeah!!! And

r2 vlcd8

doing good diet wise, i will be in new territory tomorrow, and in the 180s! i weighed 190.1 today, had a good day! i drank coffee with chocolate raspberry stevia, lots of water, an apple and strawberries for my fruit broccoli both meals, and fish both meals.  i am honestly glad i decided to cheat for a whole day, because looking and smelling the things that i really want is ok right now, and if i kept saying no i probably would be cheating little by little the whole way through.  shawn is in the 160's officially now, and she's doing well with not cheating this time, in fact, she's working a new job so she's only been eating once a day, and her two fruits.  (except her days off).  Karina (the other girl i work with that is trying this with us) doesn't think she's lost any weight, but im pretty sure she cheats on a regular basis.  i'm also pretty sure she hasn't even read the red book.

r2 vlcd6

so, i gave up yesterday, i decided i should get all my cheating out of the way now, that way i don't think about it everyday.  I ate 2, yup two, and decent sized pieces of cake, went out with my friend tan to eat pho, for those of you who don't know what that is it is rice noodles in a broth with bean sprouts basil jalapenos and your choice of meat, housin sauce, and siracha to taste, oh man it was good, it was all good, and i had a giant glass of milk with my piece of cake at 8pm, it was so good, and i felt so sick... this morning when i weighed in i was at 195, i just weighed myself now and i'm at 194.  I knew i was going to gain, i guessed about 5 pouns, so i should be happy with 4... i know i will lose it in the next couple of days, and today was really easy to stay on track where i was supposed to, in fact, it's almost nine pm and i could still have an apple... and a grissini. =D   anyway guys, happy releases!

r2 vlcd 5

so, i'm down to 190.2 or something, i'm pretty amazed actually, horrible that i can cheat like that and still lose weight... just imagine how much i would have lost without chocolate cake... anyway, i'm starving i haven't eaten yet, it's 11:30 and i had a corporate walk though at the store today, i've been putting in all kinds of extra hours for it, and i'm glad it is over, and the owner is happy.  I'm going to go figure out what's for lunch. talk to you guys later!

update: uggggh, i'm horrible, i forgot my drops at work, and i've been starving all day, lol, i ate two extra bites of hamburger for lunch, and probably a double portion of asparagus, i've eaten both my fruits, and i just cheated, AGAIN, with that confounded cake... maybe i wasn't ready to start hcg again, i'm so sad... i'm resolving to be better from here out, i'm drinking a lot of water, and trying not to think about it too much, water under the bridge, water under the bridge... so much for being in the 180's tomorrow!

sunday, 1 day after cheat, aka r2 vlcd4

so that stupid cake was calling my name again today, but i resisted! you ladies musta really had me in mind when you were praying last night... so, i thought about doing an apple day today, but since i didn't have any real food yesterday, i decided it wasn't a good idea, and since i was being a raging b-i-t-c-h today i decided i should eat.  sooo, you guys didn't warn me about how hard this diet is when you have a sig other... like you can shave... but no lotion, no smelling good shampoo and conditioner, chapstick sparingly?? uggh, how come as soon as a get a man my lips get all dry, my hands start to crack.... fooey! AND last gripe... waa for not going out to "eat" on dates, lol! this is the time he's supposed to be WOOing me he did get me flowers though, lol. anyway, i ate an apple, and for lunch i had a beef patty and broccoli. i'm still huuuungry so i am eating strawberries. i'm so freakin starvin today!

Water weight....

So I weigh 191.6, I'm sure tomorrow will be a sad sad gain, because I'm so thirsty this morning, and I know I only drank about 64 ounces of water yesterday...

more pics? beginning of r2

R2vlcd3

can you hear it whispering sweet sweet nothings in your ear?

I'm a bigggg faaaaat cheeeeeater, I couldn't help it, it was amazing, it's all I can stand not eating mOre! Sooo I've had an apple an orange and about 5 bites  of cake today. Fail! We worked our butts off today though, my arms and legs hurt they are even shaking! I will load the pic of the cake when I get home!

r2 vlcd2

uhhhggghhhh! i'm so hungry... lol, i want to eat EVERYTHING, bagels, candy, chips, :( i think loading the way i did is making me die for them! i thought it would quench my cravings or something? so not the case... i've been pushing through it though... those stupid pork rinds are even calling my name... uuuugh.... anyway, i weighed in at 194.8 today, that puts me right around ldw, and about a pound away from before i started loading.  hopefully i don't cheat today and i lose a LOT tomorrow... pray for my will power guys!

today i had iced tea for breakfast, then a spinach salad with tuna, pepper and tony c's in it, snack i had an apple, next snack was strawberries and a grissini, now i'm debating on chicken or beef for dinner with asparagus

r2 vlcd 1

waa, why is it you can eat whatever you want after the diet and not gain anything, but as soon as you are back on drops it is 5 pounds in 2 days? uuugh! could be worse i guess! so, i'm so hungry today, i had a strawberry smoothie for breakfast, and a double espresso with hazelnut stevia, lunch i had shrimp and spinach, and for dinner? i'm not sure, probably tilapia or something... i've already had both my grissini today too.  i'm just drinking water anxiously awaiting dinner... i guess i should thaw something out for it already. hmm

well, i ate an apple, or half of one, my son took the rest; took a nice 3 hour nappy, and woke up made some halibut, i would recommend this fish, you feel like you get a lot more for the 100 gram allotment, it was almost a whole steak, i actually under portioned just so i could share with my 3 year old, and i feel satisfied.  it's kinda like hamburger, feels like a bigger portion, you know?  anyway, steamed some spinach with it, it was great! i really do like that you get to actually eat, and eat GOOD FOOD on the diet, too bad you can't have chocolate, lol

gorge day 2

so, today was a horrible day, i worked hard enough for two people today, seriously.  but, i ate a chicken salad sandwich, on a jalapeno cheddar bagel, and then i had texas roadhouse steak and a loaded baked potato, and a salad for dinner, and then we went to cold stone, mmm best gorge day EVER!

R2 loading day1

I swear every time I start loading I go number 2 a LOT! ping well so far... I will post a weight tomorrow