r1 p3 day11

so, i weigh 193.8 and i hate myself, because i am so relieved that i cheated, sooo bad, and i didn't gain any extra weight, (so basically i'm mad at ME the same way i was mad at my sister and the other girl that went on the diet with me) I know it's lame, and kind of "special" but, i guess my punishment was that i had a blistering headache and an even worse temper after i ate the sugar.  I swear, sugar is worse than meth, I was never addicted to meth the way i am apparently addicted to sugar! lol. 

So, on a different note, i love groupon, i frequently buy groupons, and i kick out awesome ones onto my facebook page, BUUUUUUT i'm kinda pissed about my bath and body works one.  so i bought the 15 dollars for 30 bucks in product groupon, (online only) and go shopping, get my jap cherry blossom this that, yada yada, oh, look i can add a 25 dollar gift bag (valued at 100 bucks) for 25(!) score!!! so i add that, go to add my groupon, and i get no other discounts, i don't even get the 7.99 shipping discount, what a rape, so i call and find out, why can't i get the buy 3 get 2, or the 25 dollar bag, well, because i guess BUYING the groupon is a promotion, and i can't use two PROMOTIONS online... drat, i am kinda pissed about it, but now i want to go to bath and body works to see if they have the bag in store... and buy 40 dollars MORE worth of crap, just to PAY 25 bucks for a BAG! (stupid and horrible right? well, i never called myself brilliant) anyway, just had to vent about that!

i made better oopsie rolls yesterday, my sister showed me whats up with them, my other ones were more like oopsie pancakes.  i'm excited to try something on these bad boys today, i don't know what to do with them though... what should i pretend i'm having today?

r1 p3 day 10

waaaaaaaaaaaaa i want chocolate! but, i was good today, some tuna, some gum, skinny latte, and i'm a little bettter, honestly i should have done a steak day today, but we'll see how much i've gained in a couple few day's, i never agree with my weight on the weekend anyway,

oh, my will is weak, and my TOM strong... aka r1 p3 day 9...

so, i knew TOM was coming, because i'm like a 13 year old, i break out, and i get all jerkfacey, and i want nothing but SUGAR, and i'm hungry, ALL THE TIME! so, today i almost cried i wanted a bagel so bad, and not a whole wheat one, or an everything, but those DAMN crunch bagels, they look soo freaking good.  i said no, hot fresh chocolate chunk cookies anyone? crunchy on the outside, gooey on the inside, i said no thanks, but then i get home and i eat half a bag of pork rinds, a sugar free jello, 5 pieces of shrimp left over from whatever night that was, a tuna sandwich on ezekiel bread, THEN i see MY BOX OF GINGER SNAPS, yes, that same box i flipped out on my sister for because i thought that she opened the only box we had, and they were going to be ruined by the time i got to them, well, guess what, it was opened! so i freaked out, and ate like 6 of them, drank like 3 glasses of milk with it too, and now i have this roaring raging headache, i really could just throw up, but i want another one... i'm so sad right now! lol, i can't believe i made it all that way, only to cheat and basically ruin it! we'll see, but i know all the gain i have tomorrow will be sugar and carbs and not TOM

r1 p3 day8

so not much to report today, stall, which is GREAT! grouchy today, but happy that i got out of work early, (for once!) and happy that i'm getting a sizable amount back in taxes! yay for me!

food:
bfast- iced tea, and a naked juice
lunch- tuna salad on ezekiel bread, soooo good, how have i gone this long WITHOUT it?!?
dinner- chicken, cabbage, and a salad
dessert, a smooooooothie, mmm, i've been a little short on my water intake today, i'm going to drink a gallon hit the shower, and go to bed! see you guys later!

and ERICA... MMMMMMM CHEDDAR BAY BISCUITS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

R1 p3 day7

Gained two pounds today, but I'm still within two pounds of my ldw, I did cheat a little last night and had a chocolate riesin, ugh it was good! I thought it wouldn't taste as good, but it really did! But I'm makin oopsie rolls today, I will tell you how they turn out... mine were kinda flat, so i tried doing the rest of it in muffin pans... they just taste like quiche boo! the flat ones are good, i had a slice of cheese on one, it was, mmm ok, they sure don't look anything like Erica's! my sister is going to try to make some when she gets home, if i had just used the egg whites they would have been HUGE! i do something wrong when i fold the cream cheese mixture in.  my sister and i are going to try this lime tilapia recipe tonight, subbing cauliflower for rice.  i will let you know how it goes.  so, today i had 2 oranges, a handful of pork rinds, some tuna fish with onions and green peppers, mayo and pepper, on a bed of spinach, and that oopsie roll with a slice of cheese, i still have shrimp left over from yestrefay, maybe if cauil rice is good i will have that with some green beans for lunch tomorrow.  kyeron has had cookies, and suckers and gold fish, i've been workin on potty training hard core today, so it's been all rewards, no punishment, we even went to the park for a couple hours and he stayed dry. his sucker smells good, but i've had a headache all day, i'm sure it's from the illegal suar last night... i'm about to take some exederin and whine a little, lol
UPDATE- just so you know, cauli-rice was delicious! i will definitely be doing that again, it takes a while, but it really does look and texture like rice, tastes pretty good too! tried it with this lime tilapia, here is the recipe, i subbed liq aminos for the soy sauce,

Ginger Lime Tilapia – 4 servings (30 min total)

1 1/3 lb Tilapia

1 c White rice

1 T Garlic, minced

1 T Ginger, minced

1/3 c Lime juice

2 T Soy sauce

1. Preheat oven to 450 degrees.

2. Prepare white rice according to package directions- this should just require adding olive oil

and water, boiling, and then covering to simmer for 20 minutes.

3. Mix garlic, ginger, lime juice, and soy sauce.

4. In a glass baking dish, place tilapia fillets in a single layer and cover with mix.

5. Bake 15 minutes. Tilapia is done when it is the same color inside and out.

Ginger Lime Tilapia

Per Serving: 202 Cal; 34 g Protein; 0 g Tot Fat; 0 g Sat Fat; 0 g Mono Fat; 13 g Carb;

1 g Fiber; 1 g Sugar; 8 mg Calcium; 0 mg Iron; 458 mg Sodium; 76 mg Cholesterol

help me figure out the carbs?>??

dying  to try this!

Cauli-flied Rice

Serves 4 as a main course, 8 as a side dish
This is a pan-Asian mix combining flavours and techniques from China, Thailand and Vietnam. Chinese like their fried rice to be white, Thais like the flavour of golden fried garlic and Vietnamese like to add a bit of black pepper.
You can use raw meat, shrimp or prawns. Just make sure it’s in small pieces and thoroughly cooked before adding the eggs.
If you’re used to the darker version, add a splash of soy sauce - go easy or the rice may be too wet - and reduce the salt.
You can use this without the meat as a side dish. A friend just loves it with crumbled feta, olive oil and chopped tomato on top. The variations are endless: a bit of curry powder, some grated lemon rind to go with fish, some chili powder…

• 2 lbs. trimmed cauliflower
• 4 Tbsp. vegetable oil
• 4 cloves garlic, minced
• 3-4 cups diced, cooked meat
• 3 eggs
• 1 tsp. salt
• 2 green onions, thinly sliced
• 1/2 tsp. freshly ground black pepper

Grate the cauliflower using the medium sized holes of a grater. Grate the core too. With your hands squeeze out as much water as you can. This may not be necessary for some cauliflower as they vary in degree of wetness.
Over high heat, heat the oil (bacon fat can be used here too) in a wok or large heavy frying pan and add the garlic. Stir-fry until pale gold. Add the meat and fry until lightly browned. Break in the eggs and fry until softly scrambled. Add the grated cauliflower, sprinkle with salt and stir and fry until it’s tender-crisp, about 5-8 minutes. The length of time will depend on the cauliflower.
Stir in the green onion and pepper. Check the seasoning and serve.
Total Carbohydrates: 55Total Carbohydrates Minus Fiber: 37.68Carbohydrates per Serving (4): 13.75Carbohydrates per Serving minus Fiber (4): 9.42Carbohydrates per Serving (8): 6.87Carbohydrates per Serving minus Fiber (8): 4.71

R1 P3 DAY 6

by the way, no loss, no gain today...
  ugh, what a frustrating day, i wish my boss would just chill out, just a little bit, she's a lot better than she used to be, but she is still such a horse pill sometimes! so, i was STARVING today, started the 100 box lunch at about 9:30, had a skinny iced caramel latte this morning, ohhhh soooo good, and split in half with more coffee it was fanfreakingtastic! lunch was a trio bar, snack was about 3 servings of pork rinds... ugh, i hate that i love those things so much... but 0 carbs, and 8 grams of protein, and i think they are helping... move things along... you know?  aaanyway, about a gallon of water and i had shrimp and spinach for dinner, and and orange for a snack.  i'm so glad my carb cravings went away.  anyway, i'm going to take a shower and go to bed, btw, my manacure is totally gone! lol, but we'll see about tomorrow!