oh man, it's been a while

soooo, sorry it's been so long, i've been kind of busy, month end inventory, playing with kyeron, and hanging out with my instant family boyfriend, yes that's right people, after firmly not wanting a boyfriend for the past three years, jackie has a boyfriend.  He's actually been a really great friend, i've known him since like 2000, we never dated, but we did spend a lot of time together, i'm really excited to see where this goes.  He's a really great guy, whom i have a lot of respect for, and he has the most adorable little 2 year old, who is the toughest little guy you've ever seen.  Mia, you might remember him from the birthday party, his name is jeff.  anyway, i was going to start my gorge days tomorrow, but the other two girls i'm doing drops with don't have their drops yet (uh, cuz i have them...) so i think i'm going to wait till monday, or friday to do it... we have some non hcg food in the house i want to explode on before i'm really for the vlcd days again... i have still been reading your guys' posts, i love them, and i'm excited to start round two soon! (i'm going to hawaii with my sister, and possibly jeff in may, so, maybe i will be lookin all skinny and hot by then!

i looooove real food!

i really really do! but i'm so excited to be starting round 2.  i've already ordered my drops, and i'm making a plan for how not to cheat, i'm better than ldw, after having 3 freaking pieces of cake at kyeron's birthday party (i know it is the fat kid in me, but there were 3 different KINDS... i HAD to TRY them!) i'm at 192.8 and eating whatever i want, i really need to drink more water, my pee has not been on the clearer side in a few days...

r1 p4 day 2!

mmm, i ate like a fool today, not bad yesterday, couple sandwiches on the ez bread, and a small handful of chips, smoothie, stuff like that.  today.... i didn't have lunch, then had white beans with ham and corn bread for lunch, and i was just totally awful and helped my son eat his chicken nuggets and sweet potato fries.  i'm tired now! lol, working super early tomorrow, and i'm so excited that ky's birthday party is on sunday!

r1 p3 day 18, or 19...

steak day feels like a success, weighed myself this morning and i was at 194.8 at that was at 5am, so i'm pretty sure i'm ok.  i wonder if it would be better to do two steak days right before your loading days, that way it cancels the gorging? anyway, looong day tomorrow i'm going to bed, hope you all are loosing pounds and inches!

r1 p3 day18

so had a steak day today, i was 2.2 over ldw, so, i decided to have a steak day, mmm, it was delicious, i'm not sure if i wasn't supposed to have coffee this morning, but, well, i did, and my tummy is still FULL from steak 2.5 hours ago... and two very small roma tomatoes, with all the errands i ran today i didn't even notice being hungry or missing meals.  i got a hair cut that i HATE, dropped the deposits at the bank, ordered the birthday cake.  Kyeron decided on a spiderman cake, yay! and all my party planning is done, hopefully i get a good turn out again, i ordered the large party (25 kids) and a 1/2 sheet cake, (she said it serves 32-40 people) btw, i <3 despicable me!

r1 p3 day 17

I didn't do much, stupid snow RUINED sales for today, lots of shoveling, and dealing with the owner... sometimes i feel like i should look for a new job, but well, i do like being the one in control (well 90% of the time) and i have total job security there. ugh, anyway, i had one of those dang cupcakes today, and a bite of a crunch bagel too, i guess we'll see how big a trouble i'm in tomorrow, i'm planning a steak day though, last night i ate like half of a thing of cottage cheese so that i didn't have to throw it away, i'm sure all that dairy at 7:30 wasn't good for the diet.

r1 p3 day16 or something...

so, my boss brought in red velvet cupcakes with cream cheese icing today, as a "thank you" for being such a kick heiny manager, and well, i got pissed, lol, she KNOWS i'm on a diet, and she did this? what a brat! she said she forgot, "but aren't they delicious?" i told her i didn't know, i gave them to the staff... but they said they were amazing :( so, i blended some cottage cheese, and lemon drop and vanilla stevia and ate it like ice cream... waaa! it wasn't really amazing, but it did help a little.  i need to go get some of that sugar free chocolate! i am so tired today! we went to cheyenne mtn zoo yesterday and probably walked like 5 or 6 miles... carrying kyeron 50% of the time! anyway, i shouldn't be complaining, i should be happier i have a good job, and a healthy son, and a house to live in... sigh, i'm taking a shower and going to bed, talk to you tomorrow!

r1 p3 day 1million1... or 15... i think

did great today, except i just had a bowl of corn pops... tsk tsk, i just couldn't help it!

r1 p3 day 14

nothing new, no weight gained, no weight lost, i'm not weighing tomorrow, because I have to open, but i've been good, so im not worried.  had 4 slices of ezekiel bread today though... i am still full... fuuuull! well, i'm going to bed, plans for my sons b-day are UNDERWAY!

some befores, and afters, and what i want! what i had

before i started working out, 2/11

family pics

after starting to work out, -20#

after first round hcg, -25, so, 45 total lost

oh cinny-rolls! mmm

mmm apple crisp

r1 p3 day 13

so, i meant to write a blog yesterday, but i came home from inventory,  and watched a movie with my son, and passed out, so hard on his bed that i woke up in a SHOT at 5:30am and couldn't move my neck, and my son was all curled up next to me with his arms wrapped around me and his hands gripped around my hair, cute and cumbersome and of course he woke up when i was trying to hurry up and get ready for work! ugh, well at least i made it on time.  still doing fine on the diet, gearing up for kyeron's birthday party, i just found out the pump it up i had his party at last year is closed, so now i'm trying to figure out where i should have it.  hmmm... he is trying to decide whether he should have a spongebob cake or a spider man cake... ugggh!